i want to write things on here about what i’m feeling but the words won’t come to me. i feel weak and beaten down. exausted and used almost. i feel as if i’ve been searching for something for a long time and it still hasn’t come about. i feel so demoralized and am about ready to give up. i feel fed up with the way i feel and i want it to end. anybody have any suggestions? blahhhhhhhhhhh
In August my family and I were returning from a marvelous two week trip to our home away from home, Sebec Lake, Maine. NPR was on the radio and the man who was on asked a really good question.
If you could choose between the ability to fly or the option to become invisible, which would you pick.
He did a study on that question and the answers people gave and wrote a book based on his results. He said that the world boils down to two different people when you ask that question. Flyers, who are self-centered, egotistical, and usually very confident, and Invisible people, who are usually malicious, shy, and mistreated. He asked each person what they would do with their superhero power. Flyers started off with taking girls for rides above the clouds and the invisible people would mostly spy on people in efforts to see if they were being talked about behind their backs, sometimes even rob a bank or two. NO ONE answered that they would use their powers to save the day. At first I was surprised by the lack of superheroship everyone lacked, but it makes sense I guess. Most of us aren’t used to saving people or stopping crime on a regular basis so when the option comes into our lives there is the chance that we would become shy and stay away from it in fear of failing.
I often ask myself this question of whether I would be invisible or be able to fly. Now I ask you. What option would you pick and why?
I would fly; because, as much as I long for the solitude that invisibility could potentially bring, there is too much too see on this Earth that can’t be accessed easily or quick enough without the aid of flight.
All at once my mind was swept up by the winds of activity and excitement.
While procrastinating a term paper by surfing facebook I found that one of my good friend’s profile pictures was a Charmander. All in one moment I had made up my mind; I want to find my old gameboy and pokemon game and play it all night and forget about this paper. I was so excited in-fact, that I started posting it as my status. “Looking for Pokemon so I can ‘catch em all!’” I believe was the main idea of the status. Halfway through typing it though I realized, WAIT, every single girl that sees this will think that i’m some sort of Pokemon loser. The status was never published, and my secret was kept safe.
But now I MUST look for that game, because the temptation is just too great.
I am a closet nerd
